your heart is the size of your fist (because you need it to fight)

but the sky is really beautiful
right now
and i know that i am often sad but
there are moments when i fall 
in love with the world and 
i adore all the oxygen 
in my lungs 
and i'm not scared
anymore. 

Some days are easier than others. There are moments where i catch myself lingering, frozen at a memory in the past. There are times where an offhand remark is made that reminds me of something he used to say. But still, with each sunrise, the ache is fading.

One day, i'll look back and realise i've spent a whole lifetime without him.