Last week was a complete blur of stressing over my new job and staying out late every night to numb the pain. Didn't quite work because the sadness would hit whenever I was alone (or even when I wasn't) and I ended up falling sick.
So instead now, I have a new plan which is to go easy on myself and rest as much as I can, recognise that whatever feelings I had for him are unique and special and not transferable to another random guy. To heal and breathe and be okay with myself.